I think I’ve been avoiding my blog. Not because I have nothing to say, but because I’m not sure what to say. I could write about our trip in May to Arkansas (Grant’s sister, Phylicia, graduated college), the fun things we did on the weekend (bbq’s, hanging with friends), how I mastered making risotto (YUM), or how I made some awesome homemade bubbles. What a great time I had while my mom was out visiting (again!! yay!) But I haven’t felt like doing that, and I think I’ve realized why.
There are lots of things I want to be doing. Things I’ve been craving:
*Music. Singing. More importantly, being *gasp!* PAID to sing. Recording.
*Having another baby.
*Spending solo time with Grant.
*Spending solo time with friends.
*Being more of a morning person so I can get my butt out of bed earlier to workout longer.
*Wanting to workout.
These are the things that come to my mind immediately. I’m sure there are more; there are things I’d like to do, but I’m not obsessing over it (being part of a book club again, traveling to visit friends/family, re-paint almost every room in our house).
The problem with my list of cravings is I see it as near impossible to do it all, especially simultaneously. With a 2 yr old, husband, and house to take care of. I want it all. Is that too much to ask for? Is it impossible or am I delusional in thinking that it is?
I need to at least try, right? ‘Cause I don’t wana say that I never did.
So, in a nutshell, that’s where I am. Figuring stuff out. And I think that’s why you haven’t heard from me. When I feel like I have something to report on, I will. Otherwise, it’ll be business as usual with us. And our cute little man, Donovan 🙂
July 18, 2012 at 10:47 pm
I think it’s awesome that you’re making a list! That’s the first thing you need to do anyway 🙂
July 20, 2012 at 1:38 pm
Oh Ceara, Reading this post I have seen myself so many times. Wanting to do it all and not being able can be paralyzing. It sounds like you’re enjoying life and just want more. Lists are good because it keeps us motivated. And When you figure that out how to do everything simultaneously will you let me know? I have lots of things on my list too : )! PS. That little guy of yours gets cuter all the time! Just post a picture of him from time to time and we’ll be happy; )!