I think I’ve been avoiding my blog. Not because I have nothing to say, but because I’m not sure what to say. I could write about our trip in May to Arkansas (Grant’s sister, Phylicia, graduated college), the fun things we did on the weekend (bbq’s, hanging with friends), how I mastered making risotto (YUM), or how I made some awesome homemade bubbles. What a great time I had while my mom was out visiting (again!! yay!) But I haven’t felt like doing that, and I think I’ve realized why.
There are lots of things I want to be doing. Things I’ve been craving:
*Music. Singing. More importantly, being *gasp!* PAID to sing. Recording.
*Having another baby.
*Spending solo time with Grant.
*Spending solo time with friends.
*Being more of a morning person so I can get my butt out of bed earlier to workout longer.
*Wanting to workout.
These are the things that come to my mind immediately. I’m sure there are more; there are things I’d like to do, but I’m not obsessing over it (being part of a book club again, traveling to visit friends/family, re-paint almost every room in our house).
The problem with my list of cravings is I see it as near impossible to do it all, especially simultaneously. With a 2 yr old, husband, and house to take care of. I want it all. Is that too much to ask for? Is it impossible or am I delusional in thinking that it is?
I need to at least try, right? ‘Cause I don’t wana say that I never did.
So, in a nutshell, that’s where I am. Figuring stuff out. And I think that’s why you haven’t heard from me. When I feel like I have something to report on, I will. Otherwise, it’ll be business as usual with us. And our cute little man, Donovan :)